I take issue with you "royally failing life," NE. If someone else said that about you I would defend you, and I shall not let that remark about a friend pass, even if the friend says it!
I have been a psych ward guest, and strictly speaking I was homeless for nine months while living in my ex-wife's guest room, and currently I am "experiencing cognitive decline" in my old age; but I like to think I'm doing okay. Your posts over the past year or so point to you bouncing back. And you have an attitude toward life that speaks well of you. You rock, dear lady! 💚